Really making an effort

[max baer]

I don't mean this to be disrespectful, but it says he lived with the same man for 32 years. Was he closet?

i live with my dog but i don't screw him.
i don't know about his life but he was 100% straight. I learned that he enjoyed company and had lots going on at his house parties and get togethers. But I don't know too much about him. What I liked about him was that he was a warm man who liked a good laugh. He used to urge people to laugh more and liked people who lifted his mood.
https://www.******************/vmfFUAaUjBg
but like me he was very unhealthy it seemed. i had to change my bad habits as they were making me sicker and sicker. I would just be in constant pain otherwise. then i am left whether to commit suicide or go on in great pain and unable to breathe properly with it just getting worse and worse and worse.
I now eat the healthiest foods that it is possible to eat and exercise nearly every day.
I guess what i mean is that when you are younger you can get away with things neglecting your health but at my age i suffer unless i look after my health. The worse thing is when women persecute you and i had that really nasty stalking and lies.
So i was in a terrible state and ate junk food and beer and believe me i was extremely sick. I now feel so much healthier.

[max baer]

Can I just add to what I said. A woman I know today over christmas was talking about healthy foods and i was trying to impress with my knowledge of healthy eating and she started talking about foods that are so bad for you that they are almost poisons.
I ate a cheesecake from sainsburys and she looked at the ingredients and said "all you good eating you have been doing is completely ruined by that cheesecake have you looked at the ingredients all the **** they put in these things."
I have been told a lot about additives and how bad they are and how they can cause many health problems. she said they are almost poisons as they are so bad for our health.
So I was told.
I thought a few cakes for christmas was okay but I was wrong. They add so many chemicals to food. I guess the only way is to make our own cakes with good ingredients.
I love cakes so much but I have been explained to how much sh** is in them. Does anyone else know about these dangers?

[O_oliver]

It sounds like you’ve really taken responsibility and made changes not just for yourself, but for your relationship too, and that’s something to be proud of. It’s also a good reminder that health support isn’t just about medication — though access to the right meds and supplements can still play a big role. Pharmacy B2B systems help make sure people can get those essentials more easily, especially when lifestyle changes and medical support need to work hand-in-hand. Wishing you and Alice the best moving forward — sounds like you’re really on a great path.

[max baer]

It sounds like you’ve really taken responsibility and made changes not just for yourself, but for your relationship too, and that’s something to be proud of. It’s also a good reminder that health support isn’t just about medication — though access to the right meds and supplements can still play a big role. Pharmacy B2B systems help make sure people can get those essentials more easily, especially when lifestyle changes and medical support need to work hand-in-hand. Wishing you and Alice the best moving forward — sounds like you’re really on a great path.

Thanks so much that is very kind.
It has been sheer hell giving up alcohol but it ruined my life. I could be homeless if I kept drinking but there are days when the drive to drink is so powerful and all I can do is soldier on but it is utter misery and knowing how easy I can get drink means it is very hard.
The thing with being bipolar is that there are physical and mental pains that a normal person has but with bipolar you go so deep into hell that you are unreachable and yet no one knows as you are polite and seem just normal.
Still, it isn't as bad today as it was years ago so I am doing better. Alice is all that matters. She is my everything. My life partner, always my truest friend.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrAV5EVI4tU
Thanks
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nVhNCTH8pDs this song has always been my song when i am not drinking and need to stay clean. always suits my mood the lyrics!