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my father passed away when i was 16. but growing up, he was never a real physical guy...i appreciate him for being a scholar and a visionary, but his main interests were business (nothing wrong with that). my brother took after him kind of, and went to college to become an accountant
my father was an athlete when he was younger but wasnt really athletic in my life. my brother played basketball but thats about it. neither one of them ever was a fighting fan and growing up, i never had nobody to push me in that direction.
when my dad died i started to box, but only did it for a while ...i did it for the hobby at the time, to take my mind off things, and to try it out because i thought i might be good at it and started to take a real interest in the sport of fighting. i didnt do it because i had dreams of being a fighter at the time..
so now here i am, 22 years old with nothing to do...ive gone to college but was never interested in any type of "normal" career like most people and my brother. fighting is the only thing i like and im starting to find that out now about myself...the sad part is that i believe its too late for me. im 22 and never even had an amateur fight. i blame my brother and father for this because i was never really pushed in the direction of the thing (that i believe) i was meant to do. i had to find it out that this is what i wanted to be at 22 years old.
if i had more influential male role models who were into fighting growing up, id probably be a fighter now... now my ship has probably sailed and i will have to wait to teach my son. its sad because i have no idea what im going to do with my life. i believe i was meant to be a fighter...i have memories of myself when i was 10 or younger with play boxing gloves on asking my friends to "fight" with me..its something thats always been in me i guess, i just never had anyone to bring it out of me and lead me in the direction.
mayweather had his father, calzaghe had his father etc. who knows what they would have been if their fathers never steered them in that direction? so what am i supposed to do...i got dealt a ****ty hand. now what?
my father was an athlete when he was younger but wasnt really athletic in my life. my brother played basketball but thats about it. neither one of them ever was a fighting fan and growing up, i never had nobody to push me in that direction.
when my dad died i started to box, but only did it for a while ...i did it for the hobby at the time, to take my mind off things, and to try it out because i thought i might be good at it and started to take a real interest in the sport of fighting. i didnt do it because i had dreams of being a fighter at the time..
so now here i am, 22 years old with nothing to do...ive gone to college but was never interested in any type of "normal" career like most people and my brother. fighting is the only thing i like and im starting to find that out now about myself...the sad part is that i believe its too late for me. im 22 and never even had an amateur fight. i blame my brother and father for this because i was never really pushed in the direction of the thing (that i believe) i was meant to do. i had to find it out that this is what i wanted to be at 22 years old.
if i had more influential male role models who were into fighting growing up, id probably be a fighter now... now my ship has probably sailed and i will have to wait to teach my son. its sad because i have no idea what im going to do with my life. i believe i was meant to be a fighter...i have memories of myself when i was 10 or younger with play boxing gloves on asking my friends to "fight" with me..its something thats always been in me i guess, i just never had anyone to bring it out of me and lead me in the direction.
mayweather had his father, calzaghe had his father etc. who knows what they would have been if their fathers never steered them in that direction? so what am i supposed to do...i got dealt a ****ty hand. now what?
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