I've been finding after coming back after 4 years of college that I'm just not into boxing as a participant as much as when I was 17. For one thing, I'm a lot more self-conscious about brain damage; the human mind is too precious to waste engaging in boxing as a hobby. Going into it as a lifestyle when you have nothing else is one thing, but I have a lot of potential in so many other fields that boxing is just a dead end street for me when I really think about it.
My motivation for training is just about shot. The 20 minute drive to and from the gym seems longer than ever, and my coach is getting on my nerves. I find that where before if I were sick I'd drag myself to the gym anyways, now I'll find reasons to skip out more and more.
Worst of all, I just don't have the desire to hit a sparring partner, who's never done anything to me personally, in the face with anything approaching malevolence. I find myself throwing light punches, hitting to the body more than anything, and just not having any aggression in there at all. My hesitation when a counter opportunity presents itself usually means I'm the one who gets nailed instead.
To get to the heart of it, I don't think I really want to fight anymore. I'm more into my guitar, and having a good time with my friends. I'm more interested in partying than training, and making strangers laugh gives me more of a thrill than punching someone in the face. I've found my passion for the arts has expanded so much in these past few years, and there isn't lot of room for boxing.
Anyone else notice this in themselves? Seeing their passion for boxing die down? In a way it's sad, but I'm also excited about what's to come.
Not that I'm going to leave the forums, or stop watching the fights, or swear to never step foot in a gym. Nothing so definite and dramatic. I'm just not going to take it so seriously anymore.
My motivation for training is just about shot. The 20 minute drive to and from the gym seems longer than ever, and my coach is getting on my nerves. I find that where before if I were sick I'd drag myself to the gym anyways, now I'll find reasons to skip out more and more.
Worst of all, I just don't have the desire to hit a sparring partner, who's never done anything to me personally, in the face with anything approaching malevolence. I find myself throwing light punches, hitting to the body more than anything, and just not having any aggression in there at all. My hesitation when a counter opportunity presents itself usually means I'm the one who gets nailed instead.
To get to the heart of it, I don't think I really want to fight anymore. I'm more into my guitar, and having a good time with my friends. I'm more interested in partying than training, and making strangers laugh gives me more of a thrill than punching someone in the face. I've found my passion for the arts has expanded so much in these past few years, and there isn't lot of room for boxing.
Anyone else notice this in themselves? Seeing their passion for boxing die down? In a way it's sad, but I'm also excited about what's to come.
Not that I'm going to leave the forums, or stop watching the fights, or swear to never step foot in a gym. Nothing so definite and dramatic. I'm just not going to take it so seriously anymore.
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