Before i start, this is not a boast, i see no point in boasting to a bunch of strangers who don't even know who i am anyway.
Also i'll start by saying i'm generally pretty good with girls, somehow. Especially at getting them to fall for me in a big way, probably just me filling their head full of dreams and magic. When it comes down to something serious, i generally do a disappearing act and emerge later when they have someone else. I then proceed to essentially steal them away from their new relationship, even though i don't really want them that much. As long they cheat once, it seems that's all i want. Even last week, i saw a girl i was with for a couple of months was engaged, struck up a conversation and within 20 minutes we were video calling doing whatever you can imagine. I also did it with a married girl with a kid recently, an ex of mine.
I think i may have posted about it before or in a thread, but honestly it's a part of my personality that i really hate, so if i'm repeating myself then i apologise, just some things happened today that made me feel ***** about the things i do and probably just feel better writing it down to strangers. It actually gets me down thinking about it because it makes me feel i have a genuinely nasty evil streak in me somewhere. Never towards the girls though, i'm always good to them which is part of the problem. I don't know.
I've been trying to figure out why i do this, i figure if i get to the root of the problem, maybe i can fix it, it's not something i enjoy doing really, especially afterwards. Also i feel guilty because i should let these girls be happy and peaceful in their new relationships. I thought maybe it's an ego thing, male pride. Like knowing i can still have them even though they have somebody else. It's pretty pathetic really.
Does anybody else have this kind of thing happen with them? Maybe it's a natural urge to want to know if you can still have some, just some people are not enough of a c*nt to actually follow through with it and possibly upset people. But then part of me just thinks if they're willing to do it, then **** it, it's fair game.
Also i'll start by saying i'm generally pretty good with girls, somehow. Especially at getting them to fall for me in a big way, probably just me filling their head full of dreams and magic. When it comes down to something serious, i generally do a disappearing act and emerge later when they have someone else. I then proceed to essentially steal them away from their new relationship, even though i don't really want them that much. As long they cheat once, it seems that's all i want. Even last week, i saw a girl i was with for a couple of months was engaged, struck up a conversation and within 20 minutes we were video calling doing whatever you can imagine. I also did it with a married girl with a kid recently, an ex of mine.
I think i may have posted about it before or in a thread, but honestly it's a part of my personality that i really hate, so if i'm repeating myself then i apologise, just some things happened today that made me feel ***** about the things i do and probably just feel better writing it down to strangers. It actually gets me down thinking about it because it makes me feel i have a genuinely nasty evil streak in me somewhere. Never towards the girls though, i'm always good to them which is part of the problem. I don't know.
I've been trying to figure out why i do this, i figure if i get to the root of the problem, maybe i can fix it, it's not something i enjoy doing really, especially afterwards. Also i feel guilty because i should let these girls be happy and peaceful in their new relationships. I thought maybe it's an ego thing, male pride. Like knowing i can still have them even though they have somebody else. It's pretty pathetic really.
Does anybody else have this kind of thing happen with them? Maybe it's a natural urge to want to know if you can still have some, just some people are not enough of a c*nt to actually follow through with it and possibly upset people. But then part of me just thinks if they're willing to do it, then **** it, it's fair game.
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