Why don't I react well to WEED

[i_am_a_champ]

Originally Posted by Citizen Koba

Ummm. I think I kinda got over it by suppressing it with Opiates for like... 15 years. Heroin kinda flattens everything out. When I finally cleaned myself up it seemed to have gone. Least I hope so, I've felt pretty stable the last few years anyway...

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I can describe the experience of psychosis in excruciating detail if you'd like, man, the memories of it are amongst the most vivid and terrifying in my life and to this day I can't actually disprove the delusions I had. In the end I just kinda made a decision to opt for concensus reality cos... well it was easier.

Left me real messed up the first year or so though... I literally had to rebuild an approximation of the person I'd been by watching people very closely to see what kinda reactions they were having to what I did and said, see whether I was behaving as they expected me to. Kinda a bit like playing detective to find out who I'd been before I went nuts. You ever read Pirsig's Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintainance? That'd give you some idea of what it's like to have a complete break, though obviously Pirsigs was far more absolute (total personality annihilation via ECT)... In my case I remembered everything I'd just become severely disassociated.

Thanks man thats insightful enough. I am glad u got through it. Seems like you were heavy into drugs my friend and that they had a control on your life.

Ive heard people go through pyschosis when they try liberty cap. Some people cannot fathom what they have seen.

I have never tried it but very interested in trying either liberty cap or DMT

[Dakuwaqa]

Originally Posted by Citizen Koba

Ummm. I think I kinda got over it by suppressing it with Opiates for like... 15 years. Heroin kinda flattens everything out. When I finally cleaned myself up it seemed to have gone. Least I hope so, I've felt pretty stable the last few years anyway...

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I can describe the experience of psychosis in excruciating detail if you'd like, man, the memories of it are amongst the most vivid and terrifying in my life and to this day I can't actually disprove the delusions I had. In the end I just kinda made a decision to opt for concensus reality cos... well it was easier.

Left me real messed up the first year or so though... I literally had to rebuild an approximation of the person I'd been by watching people very closely to see what kinda reactions they were having to what I did and said, see whether I was behaving as they expected me to. Kinda a bit like playing detective to find out who I'd been before I went nuts. You ever read Pirsig's Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintainance? That'd give you some idea of what it's like to have a complete break, though obviously Pirsigs was far more absolute (total personality annihilation via ECT)... In my case I remembered everything I'd just become severely disassociated.

Damn that’s intense. Quite amazing that you came out the other end tbh. Once the curtains pulled back that can be it.

Which drug effected your mental health the most ?