To drugs or alcohol? Anything from pot to heroin? I am having some struggles right now, I am not even sure if this is appropriate to post on this forum and if it is I apologize and the mods can feel free to delete it, I do not want to break any rules. Just looking to see if there is anyone I can talk to or if we can have an open discussion and maybe help each other out, if there is more than one person dealing with some substance abuse problem. I won't go into graphic detail, I just want to see if there is anyone else who wouldn't mind discussing stuff related to this, whether it's a past experience that you overcame and beat, or are still struggling with or someone you know and cared about dealt with. I'm ready to quit, I'm just very scared of the side effects and withdrawals, which won't be terrible but my living situation is such that I have such easy access to these drugs and the dealers just love giving them to me for free (spotting me) and I will pay them back, which I always do (otherwise I risk them doing something like messing with my property or violence related..etc)
I got myself into this ****ty situation and I have t get myself out. I am afraid to tell my family and ask for help because it's very humiliating to be the "family drug addict loser". I know I'm not a loser, but I feel like one when I compare myself to others. I mean I watch Floyd Mayweather...he was a millionaire at my age, I'm in my late 20's...I know it's silly to do that but I do it. I compare myself to people who are more successful than me and to get rid of feeling so inferior, I started getting high. It started off innocent enough, I would just get high after taking care of all my daily responsibilities and then just come home and sit back and watch some old time or 80's/90's boxing stuff on youtube, or go on a forum, watch documentaries, chat with friends, and then as time went on I noticed that when I wasn't high and doing these things, I noticed that the drugs were missing...like I couldn't enjoy these things anymore unless the drugs were involved. That is where I am now. And I have to quit, I can't afford this habit and I've become very isolated, no real friends except these drug addict losers (I guess I'm one of them, but I don't hang out with them at all). All my friends I grew up with moved away, are successful or at least working and have their own places or are in college. I'm still trying to find my way, and these drugs are totally ****ing up my progress.
I got myself into this ****ty situation and I have t get myself out. I am afraid to tell my family and ask for help because it's very humiliating to be the "family drug addict loser". I know I'm not a loser, but I feel like one when I compare myself to others. I mean I watch Floyd Mayweather...he was a millionaire at my age, I'm in my late 20's...I know it's silly to do that but I do it. I compare myself to people who are more successful than me and to get rid of feeling so inferior, I started getting high. It started off innocent enough, I would just get high after taking care of all my daily responsibilities and then just come home and sit back and watch some old time or 80's/90's boxing stuff on youtube, or go on a forum, watch documentaries, chat with friends, and then as time went on I noticed that when I wasn't high and doing these things, I noticed that the drugs were missing...like I couldn't enjoy these things anymore unless the drugs were involved. That is where I am now. And I have to quit, I can't afford this habit and I've become very isolated, no real friends except these drug addict losers (I guess I'm one of them, but I don't hang out with them at all). All my friends I grew up with moved away, are successful or at least working and have their own places or are in college. I'm still trying to find my way, and these drugs are totally ****ing up my progress.
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