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I went absolutely crazy last night. I went out with a Japanese friend of mine. He's a slick guy, dresses really well, and he can hook women when he gets the chance. But he's a shy dude also. I'm a bit shy myself. I'm not so great at just approaching females.
But as I've detailed many times in these pages, this graduate school stuff is also really stressful sometimes. And I have various other sources of stress. Sometimes, I can go really crazy. And at those times, I can do anything, by which I mean I can talk to any girl, without a second thought. And girls I know, girls I might call a colleague, or what not, suddenly become available, because all of my inhibitions are just gone.
Yesterday, I went out with this friend of mine. He's always trying to have me be the one to talk to girls first, as if I am the one who is suppose to be plastered to the windshield, creating all of the openings. I had an idea. I will intentionally tap into this part of my mind, and intentionally make myself go crazy. So I thought of all of these things that troubled me. And I hyped myself up. And I drank a bunch of beer. And when I started to waver, I hyped myself up once more.
Well, it did work. We didn't get laid last night, but we got phone numbers, and we talked to a lot of girls, etc. But I also went pretty crazy. In fact, we started in our city, then we went to Tachikawa, which is a fairly big place in West Tokyo prefecture. From there, we ended up in Fussa, which is home to a US Airforce base. In between, I talked to a bunch of girls.
In Fussa, we went to expatriot bars and hit on a bunch of Phillipina girls who work at them, or were there to see there friends, and the like. This was fine. We got phone numbers, maybe even set some things up, but I don't remember exactly because I was a bit drunk and have to ask my friend. However, I ended up doing uchikomi (judo roles) on the street. My entire body hurts today because if it, but especially my left shoulder and my right elbow. I also pulled out my c o ck and walked down the street. I believe that I was just attempting to demonstrate how much I was not giving a f u ck.
I think I need to learn how to better control this alternative personality of mine, if I decide to take it out.
Last edited by Virgil Caine; 11-21-2012 at 06:41 AM.