More Rants From the Corner Of My Mind (non boxing)
Some days i wake up and I look in the mirror and I feel selfish because I know I feel good and I am getting in better shape with each passing day mentally physically and spiritually. Can I fault myself for striving hard and doing what is best for me? I look at it two ways, one is you can crawl up in the fetal position and cry your eyes out (oh and I have) or you can put your head up stand up straight and walk tall. I gave it some serious thought soul searching and I found what Iwas looking for. Granted I am not complete ly happy in every aspect but who the hell is? I mean anyone who tells you they are completely happy in every aspect of life is lying. I just set smalls goals for myself thing I could reach and I worked at them. Life is hard and it has a weird sense of humor you can sometimes almost predict certain things you know. "Everyday you have to adjust your outlook on life your moods change like the seasons and you have to be able to deal with your worst enemy.....yourself....you can always find excuses to not accomplish your goals you have to look for reasons why you should." I wrote that and I thought of it as being some of the truest **** I ever wrote. I think you just need to find the positive in things even when they are bad. I know it is hard sometimes to do but you need to look at yourself and find the positives in you.
Relationships in life are difficult to maintain. People just want or expect too much from others sometimes. I remember my father telling me when I was about 8 or 9 "he said Thomas when you get older if you can count how many friends you have on one had you are a lucky man" I looked at him like he was crazy I was in a class of 25-30 kids in school and they were all my friends I had a group of firneds near my house that I played with. i was on a football team and hung out with some of the boys after practice. i figured I was going to have at least 20-30 good firends when I got older. I look at that moment frozen in time inside my head and I think WOW he was too right. I posted this as my status on f/b the other day. "Life is full of imperfect things.....and imperfect people. I'm not the best at hardly anything, and I forget birthdays and anniversaries just like everyone else. But what I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each others faults - and choosing to celebrate each others differences - is one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship." I think of this and relate it too what my dad told me. True friends are for free but in most relationships people have uses for one another. It is a two way street you get something so you give something in return. Whether or not it is material is not important. It may just be an ear to listen to you when you are down or a person to hold you hand when you need to be comforted. A friend that cost too much is a friend that makes you choose between them and others. People sell out their friends mostly due to jealousy or envy. They want what others have unfortunatley trusting someone enough to be friends with them makes you vulnerable to getting played by them. It is often your best friend that betrays you takes your woman or steals from you. True firends have no price tag and can be trusted but in perfect world we would all have true friends.
Through out life we look around and certain things are constant. Hopefully you are fortunate to have your parents in your life or cyblings that you are close with. I remember always hearing people say "you can choose your friends but you can't choose your family" this is very true and sometimes your family is chosing for you. Go figure right? In life you you look for things that are constant peopl just don't like change. At least they don't like quick changes systematic changes things that change gradiually are hard enough to deal with. No one likes the rug pulled out from under them right? I tell you there are many different ways to look thngs btu some people only know of one. The decisions we make in life lead us down the path. We can choose direction, who to love, where to live, & right from worng. We all make mistakes, we can be misled. The people who love us can help to steer us in the right direction & to make right choices. It is up to the people we wrong to forgive us & for us to forgive those who wrong us. There are many things I can swallow but this one left me with a lump in my throat. People all need a way to release their inner stress for me it is to work out and write things down. The hardest part in life is trying to udnerstand certain things in which we don't need to understand just be sympathetic to it. Somethings don't require much thought just action.