I don't know what is with death lately that everywhere I turn someone is dying, on their way soon, or want to die. I guess I'm at that age where we beging to lose people close to us, but it ****ing sucks.

I've lost people in my life for ever and everytime I get news like this I question why them and not some ****ing scumbag that is pushing crack to some 10 year old, or the mother ****er that stole an old ladies purse and punched her in the jaw, why not the mother ****er that raped his own 2 year old baby, why not the mother ****er that drugs women to have sex with them, why not the mother ****er that send a whole army accross the world just so he and his buddies can get a fcukgin oil contract at the cost of thousands of inocent lives.

This is why right now I'm at a stage where I question God and everything he stands for. I want to beleive and know that there is something out there that some people call God, Allah, The Creator, or Supreme Being. But is hard when you hear about the 4 year old kid that from nowhere now has cancer, **** cancer that mother ****er took my grandfather and now is taking a very dear friend.

Today is rainy, glommy, and just a ****ing sad day. I did not even want to get out of bed, just sulk and try to find a reason to stay positive about everything. Anyone that knows me will tell you that even my sarcasm I'm usually in good spirits but I can find them right now.

Right now I hate Doctor that just want to ****ing collect that fat check from the insurance company, I hate the doctors that refuse treatment 'cause "you're too advanced", or that they have no idea where to send you, or your insurance does not cover. **** you mother ****er whta about your BOWS!!! You made a ****ing pledge and promise to help the sick, so ****ing do it, no all this ****ing *******s want is to drive a nice ****ing car, live in the big house in teh respectable area of town, and attend the parties so their friends can say oh there goes doctor such and such, they are educated. Well guess what **** you education and class are not for sale at Harvard, Cornell, MIT, or any other educational ****ing building. Education and class are tought at home you cheap ****. Now gorow some ****ing balls and fulfill your ****ing promise that you made the day you became a doctor and help the sick, look at all cost for affordable treatment, and BE COMPATIONATE!!!!!

I'm sorry for writing all this ****, but this is one of the few places I vent. :mad:

Don't apologize for venting. We all do it here too.

I'm sorry that you're losing loved ones. I think it's good that you are trying to stay positive and it's completely normal to question "WHY?" Life sucks sometimes, but it does go on with or without you or the ones who pass away. It sucks that there are people out there that get away with ruining others' lives and don't suffer for it. They'll suffer one day, but it still sucks to watch them go on now while others die because of them. It sucks that young children have to worry about dieing before they get a chance to live. They are the ones that are strong and give us all hope.

Going on each day and making the most of it all is called FAITH. You've got to continue believing and having that thing called FAITH.

Hang in the Carlao. Keep the FAITH. As I told Momita when her son died, take a big deep breath and hang on. Breathe.....

death is really not such a bad guy, he gets the "dark", "evil" or "bad" rap alot because people are so uncertain of him, and uncertainty is always scary to us humans. we just dont know what happens when we go. life is a half circle and so is death, neither can be complete without each other. i believe that life's half is more of the bad one because of the struggle and bad times we all experience. i see death as eternal rest and very peaceful.

just how i see it

Today is no different from yesterday in that the same ****ed up **** has been happening daily for longer than either of us have existed. It's not wise to despair over things so far out of your reach, but it's not really easy to avoid either. The best advice is to limit your exposure to it - you never really watched the news when you were a kid, right? Ignorance truely is bliss.

I know what you feel like, though, even if for other reasons.

The older you get, the more common it's going to be to have to deal with it, unfortunately.

ignorance is bliss is not the full quote, people always forget that. you have to look at the real quote a little differently than you do the one people always say

"Where ignorance is bliss, `tis folly to be wise,"

ignorance is bliss is not the full quote, people always forget that. you have to look at the real quote a little differently than you do the one people always say

"Where ignorance is bliss, `tis folly to be wise,"


I never knew there was more to the quote! Thanks! It's a good one to use with my kids. IT's like the Bible, people quote a lot out of it but not the whole quote which changes the whole context of the original quote.

Good job!

I wasn't actually quoting, just identifying with the quote in reference to my post.

But still, good show.

I wasn't actually quoting, just identifying with the quote in reference to my post.

But still, good show.

i hear ya man :D

Thanks for the wordds of encouragement. I don't think that death is a bad thing, is not is nature. All living things will die soon or later, but for me later than sooner is better.

Why are good people suffering, when ****ing scum goes about having a grand ol' time.

It alawys seems like the good people die because we miss them the most. My Dad was a son of a ***** most of the time. We aren't having a funeral for him because no one other than Me, my Mom (who was seperated from him) my brother and sister and my uncle would be the only ones there. If you guys knew half the stuff I know about him, you would be glad he was gone.

you shouldnt say that your glad he is gone,he was human too, and just like us he had a ****ed life on this earth like the rest of us.no one is perfect.

you shouldnt say that your glad he is gone,he was human too, and just like us he had a ****ed life on this earth like the rest of us.no one is perfect.


I loved him, he was my father. But he was no angel. Most people would be glad he is gone.

i know how that feels.

We're all dying...

It alawys seems like the good people die because we miss them the most. My Dad was a son of a ***** most of the time. We aren't having a funeral for him because no one other than Me, my Mom (who was seperated from him) my brother and sister and my uncle would be the only ones there. If you guys knew half the stuff I know about him, you would be glad he was gone.**** man, from the way you talk, I'm already glad.

Having said that, my Dad was supposedly an ass according to my Mom and my gullible, immature ass. Even though I'm the oldest I think my loyalty to my Mom caused me to believe a buncha crap til it was almost too late. I stayed with him round the clock his last year of life til Cancer took him out but he was just a guy like all of us. Not perfect but hardly the dud my mom painted him as.

****, I hope I'm half the dud he was.*that didn't come out right*

Just hang in there bro. Even though you are going through a difficult time, just remember, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. (I can't believe that came out of me :eek: )

But like they say, the good die young. I don't know if it's true.
They once interviewed some famous guy (I don't remember who)who said, "the good die young, I really believe that. I know I'm going to live a very long long time, you know why? Because I'm a bad boy.

The doctors say my friend has less than 96 hours of life. I've come to terms with this, is just upsetting that she had to suffer this much, she is the second person in my life that cancer has taken away.

Is such a ****ing evil ****, that it just breaks my heart to see her in such a decaying way, she does not look like her, she looks like a mommified cadaver. She is ready to go and made her peace, so have I, but why can't she go with out the suffering?

It sucks; muh****as die. My dad, was a career soldier who retired as a Sergeant Major and went into civilian life and became a city councilman and successful businessman. he didnt have to rely on anyone for ****. Then he gets sick(prostate cancer) and you could just tell his pride killed him even more so than the cancer. He couldn't even wipe his own ass at the end or turn over in the bed without crying out. This muh****a had been to Vietnam twice. He fought in Korea too!

Once ... he fell outta bed. I was in the next room and ran in there and he was ... cryin.

Maybe death ain't so bad.

I'm so sorry about your friend. We never know the reasons why someone has to suffer so much before dying. Only God knows and we'll understand when we die and meet our maker. It's hard on those who have the pain, and death is the release of all that suffering. Those left behind continue to suffer with heartache, but must go on believing that there is something after all that suffering. Something wonderful. Her spirit will live on in you, her friend, and all her other friends and family. Believe and have faith.

True story. A friend's daughter was being awakened one night by her brother saying "Cathy, wake up!" Her brother was known for sneaking into her house and wanting her to get up and make him pancakes. She was exceptionally groggy and didn't want get up at all. She finally decided to get up and chew him out because he wouldn't stop. She woke up to smoke in the house. She got her family out just in time. Much longer and they woulnd't have made it out alive.












Her brother died in September.

It was Momita's son.

I'm so sorry about your friend. We never know the reasons why someone has to suffer so much before dying. Only God knows and we'll understand when we die and meet our maker. It's hard on those who have the pain, and death is the release of all that suffering. Those left behind continue to suffer with heartache, but must go on believing that there is something after all that suffering. Something wonderful. Her spirit will live on in you, her friend, and all her other friends and family. Believe and have faith.

True story. A friend's daughter was being awakened one night by her brother saying "Cathy, wake up!" Her brother was known for sneaking into her house and wanting her to get up and make him pancakes. She was exceptionally groggy and didn't want get up at all. She finally decided to get up and chew him out because he wouldn't stop. She woke up to smoke in the house. She got her family out just in time. Much longer and they woulnd't have made it out alive.












Her brother died in September.

It was Momita's son.


Momita's son? the momita that posts here???? her son died in september? what year? what the hell is going on here? im so confused! :confused: :(

Momita's son? the momita that posts here???? her son died in september? what year? what the hell is going on here? im so confused! :confused: :(


I'm sorry Agony. I didn't know you weren't aware of this. Her oldest son died last Sept. Not Jeremy, his older brother. Momita and I have been friends for a number of years because her youngest and my eldest were classmates and friends.

He was the most amazing person. He was the epitomy of the old cliche "Strangers are only friends I haven't met yet."

The toughest thing I've ever done is watch my friend bury her son. And it doesn't even compare to what she has gone thru and is still going thru to this day. My heart aches for her.....

Agony, this is what Carlao was talkin bout. We are some macabre ****s.

That's sad about Momita's son.

Agony, this is what Carlao was talkin bout. We are some macabre ****s.

That's sad about Momita's son.


It is SB....he was too young.

My son was more affected by it than I first thought but he's turning his life around. So in one respect, his death wasn't in vain. I just wish it didn't have had to happen.

When I hit the lottery we gon have a Global bash for the ages; I'd love to meet you ****as fo real. All the trimmings and it'll be on me!

damn, im really speachless, i didnt know about all this going on, how old was he? is that why she isnt here anymore? tell her my blessings are with her :(

damn, im really speachless, i didnt know about all this going on, how old was he? is that why she isnt here anymore? tell her my blessings are with her :(


He was only 24 and left two boys behind. Yes, that's why she isn't here anymore. She pops in now and then, but she's not up to much anymore. I will pass on your blessing the next time I call her. I'm going to see her in June.

what happened?