I was thinking this morning as I was running, and the question arose as to why people still come to me for guidance every week on biblical studies. I’m a wondering star full of confusion, mood swings, and intensity – yet people keep relying on me to teach them and council them every week. Actually my group is growing quite large, which shocks me even more. Of course that means I have to deal with more drama. For instance I have a guy that joined about a month ago and is trying to change it up to his preferences, and I believe eventually take over. He obviously doesn’t know me that well; so I’m going to have a little chat with him on Thursday night over some coffee. I don’t want to be offensive with him, and I’ll let him know that he doesn’t want to provoke me to become offensive with him. However I feel like I am having to defend myself from him and it makes me uneasy; so I need to settle this and tell him what’s up before he provokes me to take an offensive stance with him – of which I don’t like to do anymore but will gladly oblige if need be with an intensity that he’s never seen in any other human being on this planet. Nonetheless I’m a peaceful guy, I’d like to think; but I’m not going to let myself encounter any conflict within the group that I established over a year ago. Sometimes a shepherd has to beat off the wolves from his flock; but I have to do it nicely... even though he has absolutely no freak’n idea on how sick I am and how passionately I could tear him apart. I am calm, I am at piece, and I wish Thursday night would come faster so that I can settle this. I miss the cage, I admit. I miss the violence, the passion, how I would humiliate my opponent in front of his mother in his corner and how I would bathe myself in his blood while his fans cried out to stop. I miss how the ref had to pull me off of whoever I was fighting after each round of every fight. Relentless, unceasing, blood-bathing, bone-breaking, panic and awe of the beauty of what goes on inside that cage of glory. I think the problem is that I have two extreme personalities; I am quite violent, and I am quite peaceful and humble. Luckily I have mastered the switch that I can turn each on and off at will. Actually if I wasn’t a Christian and didn’t have my whole life planned out of schooling and ministry, I imagine I’d make an excellent serial killer. But no, there’s no sport or fun in that like there is in the cage against an aware and trained opponent. There lays the twitching challenge as he gasps for air on the mat, gripping the sides of the cage and silently begging the ref to pull me off of him and end the fight. I’m young still, maybe I will change my mind; I’ve been known to do that before. I’m not quite sure as to why the darker aspects of life turn me on as they do; I mean, I do in fact turn for love, peace, and harmony, but I think with the state of my mind that is a distant concept of reality for my life. It seems that the harder challenge for me in this life, is to understand and thus control my own mind. I’ll end this post here.

You know, most serial killers are Christians who vote republican. 70% I think. Maybe everyone wants your council because you just look like the straight edge Christianly type. Or maybe they like to brag to competing Christians that their bible study leader can kick so and so's bible study leader's ass.

lol, yea it's a confusing matter, isn't it?

Not really, when I was a Christian the most popular Christian speakers were like ex-satanists or generally people who were severely ****ed up and turned their lives around when they got saved. Not saying that your that extreme, but you get the idea.

That's how the memebers of every church I've been to have always been. They love to hear how terrible people have lived, because it makes them feel better about what they have done personally because they say, "hey, if he did all of that, and God still loves him, that what I've done isn't so bad".

God can suck my penis singing a polka....

Post pics.

I'll try...

You can't take pictures of God, mang. Everyone knows that.

That's right, God and vampires don't have reflections and are not photogenic. Sometimes though, Jesus and his mom show up on tortiillas & grilled cheese sandwiches.

Wrong, if I cover him with my semen after the sacred blow job, you'll can see him....

It freaks me out whenever Leather is correct and makes sense.

It freaks me out whenever Leather is correct and makes sense.


LOL It is rather frightening...... :dance:

YAY!!! MCM has discovered SanTO SeMeN de TodOS los DOlorES (God + A seminal torrent)!!!

hahahahahahahahahaahahaaa

MAd semen... I guess.

Yeah...maaaaad (and saint) semen for the masses!!!

I was thinking this morning as I was running, and the question arose as to why people still come to me for guidance every week on biblical studies. I’m a wondering star full of confusion, mood swings, and intensity – yet people keep relying on me to teach them and council them every week. Actually my group is growing quite large, which shocks me even more. Of course that means I have to deal with more drama. For instance I have a guy that joined about a month ago and is trying to change it up to his preferences, and I believe eventually take over. He obviously doesn’t know me that well; so I’m going to have a little chat with him on Thursday night over some coffee. I don’t want to be offensive with him, and I’ll let him know that he doesn’t want to provoke me to become offensive with him. However I feel like I am having to defend myself from him and it makes me uneasy; so I need to settle this and tell him what’s up before he provokes me to take an offensive stance with him – of which I don’t like to do anymore but will gladly oblige if need be with an intensity that he’s never seen in any other human being on this planet. Nonetheless I’m a peaceful guy, I’d like to think; but I’m not going to let myself encounter any conflict within the group that I established over a year ago. Sometimes a shepherd has to beat off the wolves from his flock; but I have to do it nicely... even though he has absolutely no freak’n idea on how sick I am and how passionately I could tear him apart. I am calm, I am at piece, and I wish Thursday night would come faster so that I can settle this. I miss the cage, I admit. I miss the violence, the passion, how I would humiliate my opponent in front of his mother in his corner and how I would bathe myself in his blood while his fans cried out to stop. I miss how the ref had to pull me off of whoever I was fighting after each round of every fight. Relentless, unceasing, blood-bathing, bone-breaking, panic and awe of the beauty of what goes on inside that cage of glory. I think the problem is that I have two extreme personalities; I am quite violent, and I am quite peaceful and humble. Luckily I have mastered the switch that I can turn each on and off at will. Actually if I wasn’t a Christian and didn’t have my whole life planned out of schooling and ministry, I imagine I’d make an excellent serial killer. But no, there’s no sport or fun in that like there is in the cage against an aware and trained opponent. There lays the twitching challenge as he gasps for air on the mat, gripping the sides of the cage and silently begging the ref to pull me off of him and end the fight. I’m young still, maybe I will change my mind; I’ve been known to do that before. I’m not quite sure as to why the darker aspects of life turn me on as they do; I mean, I do in fact turn for love, peace, and harmony, but I think with the state of my mind that is a distant concept of reality for my life. It seems that the harder challenge for me in this life, is to understand and thus control my own mind. I’ll end this post here.
counsel. Oops, sorry.*slaps hand* BAD POSTING FINGER!

I get to "talk" to this guy tonight. But first I need a drink, a nap, and a shower...then I'm putting on a wife-beater and some boots and gunna try my hardest to not grab this fool by the throat and slam him on the ground.

arnt you a hard ass

Yes, I am.

gods gonna punish you

For what?

for wanting to slam some guy on the ground

A shepherd sometimes needs to protect his flock by beating off the wolves.

you can only do so much before he wont forgive you anymore, how dare you!

What would he want to forgive me for?

are you saying after you beat the **** outta this guy(if thats what it comes down to) your not gonna ask for gods forgivness?

Oh, no I'm not really going to beat him down, (I was saying that's what I would LIKE to do). Really, all I'm going to do is talk to him...although I'd like to do more, I won't, as I think my words are sufficient.

i see