1. It’s in-between school semesters and I’m getting edgy because next semester doesn’t start until a whole other month from now. I should have taken some classes during the winter semester.

2. I’m on a reading-plan to where I read the whole Bible, every five months. I’m behind on my reading plan.

3. I want to learn more about Islam and start studying the Qur'an so I can better understand the extremist’s motivation, but I don’t have the time.

4. I have yet to find a girl who is single, loves God, and enjoys studying theology.

5. If I want to get my PHD, I have about 10 more years of college as well as like a billion and a half dollars to go in class units and books!

6. I have yet to stop all suffering in the world... I’m determined... it’s damn well possible!

7. The more I study theology, the more I realize how little I know... it should be the other way around... studying shouldn’t make me feel stupider!

8. Whenever I see a “holy-man” who blatantly is NOT striving to BE holy, I get the sudden urge to vomit. Role models should act more like role models and not like evil hypocrites towards the people who put their trust in them!

9. I’m partly responsible for the spirituality of the 12 people I lead in my bible study; therefore I’m always stressed out because I’m not perfect in my own spirituality... I have to always watch myself so I don’t become blatantly hypocritical like other clergy that I know that makes me sick. I have yet to become perfect in my spirituality... yet I’m determined to strive towards it.

10. The missionary family that I’m in charge of isn’t getting their salary from headquarters. I’m fighting the system; but I shouldn’t be the one to fight this – I’m only 21 and am not even a pastor... shouldn’t those who are older and more accredited be fighting this? Nonetheless, I’m lighting a fire underneath the Salvation Army... we’ll see who it burns.

11. Society has too much of an influence in me, and I constantly feel myself getting drawn into the media’s propaganda. Death to Hollywood, trends, labels, and the typical life of death, and on with a life that’s truly worth living!

12. I know that true happiness comes in simplicity... but I live in Los Angeles. It goes against every single thing that this society says is “happiness.”

13. The hardest thing to overcome, I’ve come to learn – is myself.

14. Just because it's bad to end with "13" frustrations!

Why do feel the need to be perfect in what you do? Yes, if you're going to preach it, you should practice it, but at the same time, you are only human. No one is perfect. No one.

Why do feel the need to be perfect in what you do? Yes, if you're going to preach it, you should practice it, but at the same time, you are only human. No one is perfect. No one.

I’ve always had the motto: If you’re not going to put your whole life into what you do, then it’s not worth doing. I accept the fact that no one can be perfect, but that doesn’t mean that perfection isn’t worth striving for. Also the more well-known quote, “Practice what you preach.” I dread the day that someone will tell me that to my face; I want to live a life where I do practice what I preach and nobody will feel the need to tell me that. St. Frances said, “Preach the Word at all times, when necessary use words.” The way I live my life 24/7 is going to give or take away the credibility that I have when I teach for three hours a week. In my mind, the moment I stop striving towards bettering myself, is the moment I stop caring about who I am; where who I want to be ceases to exist...I’m as good as dead then. I don’t want to just live; I want to be, and die in the fullness of that being.

Anyone else have some frustrations?

I'm frustrated with me son again...

and the computer game "World Of Warcraft"

when im watching a show ive been waiting to see all week, and right when some1 is about to say something you know is gonna kick off the show, some1 starts talking to you or one of the kids cry, and i dont hear and neither did any1 else, so i never no what was said.

when my friends ***** and complan about there boyfriends cheating and hitting on them, then they cry to me how much they love and want them back.


stupid people

people that think there better then everyone else


Damn alot of things get to me, but im not about to list all them.

I get perturbed when I miss an episode of a tv program I've been planning on seeing. Like the one last night on "made" on mtv. Kurt Angle was supposed to teach some turd how to wrestle or make the wrestling squad or some such nonsense.

****. It might be on now. Later.

http://www.globalmma.net/forums/showthread.php?t=816&highlight=hatred

I can't find my moose slippers. This is really pissing me off.

found them. They were under the bed.