Almost ****'n OD'd last night.. I'm high/drunk right now too. Sure, I can ****ing fight, but I'm going downa lonely road man. You ****s look up to people who can fight well, and embrace their ****ing violent side.. but where does that get them? I know a lot of you guys respect me because I can fight.. thats ****ing bull ****.. maybe its the coke and vodka ytalking though.. i dunno. People glorify fighting.. destruction.. man thats ****ing wrong. I could still be fighting in that cage with people chanting my name with the lives i take.. but thats not how you truly live.. how does that help anyone? what benefit does that pose on mankind? nothing. It's a form to deal with internal demons that we're too weak to deal with ourselves.

I'm just another druggy, ****ing guy goin down the wrong path that can fight. woopty ****ing doo. Don't respect me, and don't make guys that can fight your role models;... mnake guys that treat their ladies right your role models.. guys that can rase awsome kids who have a love for life.. not *****es that are blood thirsty that are good with fighting... if I kept fighting u would respect a guy that doesnt give a ****, who kills, then who does drgs after the fight in order to deal with his demons.

Just.. just ****ing realise who you're looking up to man.. dont go buy just what you see on the outside, go by what you see on the inside. The ring is a small part of life.. how are they helping their friends? how are they treating their lady? how are the managing their money? .. etc.. i dunno.. this whole ****ing site is dedicated to blood thirstyness.. to a blindness of internal conflict that you guys don't want to look at. I know, I was there... I was ****ing in the cage, I was ****ing there when **** went down.. the shootings.. the stabbings.. the pride for 228th street.. but **** it because you know what? I dosen't lead to anywhere but to hate and destruction of your soul and heart, and your love.

Think about this **** man. Just ****ing do me the favor and think about it. I don't even know if I came across the right way because I'm ****ing spaced out man... but think about it. ...


Sincerely.,
Matt "Mighty Mouse" Jensen... who means ****ing nothing.

Originally posted by Mouse
Almost ****'n OD'd last night.. I'm high/drunk right now too. Sure, I can ****ing fight, but I'm going downa lonely road man. You ****s look up to people who can fight well, and embrace their ****ing violent side.. but where does that get them? I know a lot of you guys respect me because I can fight.. thats ****ing bull ****.. maybe its the coke and vodka ytalking though.. i dunno. People glorify fighting.. destruction.. man thats ****ing wrong. I could still be fighting in that cage with people chanting my name with the lives i take.. but thats not how you truly live.. how does that help anyone? what benefit does that pose on mankind? nothing. It's a form to deal with internal demons that we're too weak to deal with ourselves.

I'm just another druggy, ****ing guy goin down the wrong path that can fight. woopty ****ing doo. Don't respect me, and don't make guys that can fight your role models;... mnake guys that treat their ladies right your role models.. guys that can rase awsome kids who have a love for life.. not *****es that are blood thirsty that are good with fighting... if I kept fighting u would respect a guy that doesnt give a ****, who kills, then who does drgs after the fight in order to deal with his demons.

Just.. just ****ing realise who you're looking up to man.. dont go buy just what you see on the outside, go by what you see on the inside. The ring is a small part of life.. how are they helping their friends? how are they treating their lady? how are the managing their money? .. etc.. i dunno.. this whole ****ing site is dedicated to blood thirstyness.. to a blindness of internal conflict that you guys don't want to look at. I know, I was there... I was ****ing in the cage, I was ****ing there when **** went down.. the shootings.. the stabbings.. the pride for 228th street.. but **** it because you know what? I dosen't lead to anywhere but to hate and destruction of your soul and heart, and your love.

Think about this **** man. Just ****ing do me the favor and think about it. I don't even know if I came across the right way because I'm ****ing spaced out man... but think about it. ...


Sincerely.,
Matt "Mighty Mouse" Jensen... who means ****ing nothing.

Two words

Randy Couture

i might be wrong but i don't think anyone here looks up to you if they do their more ****ed up then you

ok?

http://www.davidsj.com/revsam/cheerup.jpg

Actually, compared to a bunch of his other posts about Drag and ****ing his mom and all that -- I'd say that this is the deepest post I've seen in a long time.

If you are not happy being this way then find what makes you happy Matt and get out of this hole. You are the only one in control of your life, you, not your demons, your past, only you and whatever you want to do with your present and future. Its easier said then done, but I believe I speak on behalf of many that you would be more respected if you changed your ways because stopping the abuse is harder then all the things you list as doing.

I for one, admire the men that are able to separate the art and style of MMA with that of their own lives. I value and respect the art and effort that goes behind good techniques, not the total distruction that comes with it at times.

You claim to be hard core with things...now prove it and get up, whipe your ass off and change is thats what you really want.

Matt you know what you need to do and stop doing. So start already. Get yourself cleaned up.

And I personally do not admire fighters - I only admire some of thier skills and thier determination and I think most ppl feel the same.

like Chris said, I admire skills and abilities not the fighter.

I would say that its good that you at least recongise your problems.

The thing is now you gotta do something about it, otherwise your just another guy that knows he has a problem.

Your a stong guy, act like it.

You said it yourself, look at the person on the inside. That's what really counts. If you don't like your inside, change it. You are the only one who can do that. Good luck and God Bless.

sorry yer goin through all that **** mang. i kinda get bummed out too about stuff. nothin like your issues but similar in the sense that it's battling inner demons. everybody does it, no matter who they are or what they do. that doesn't mean you're weak. it means you're human.
weak people are the ones who will take out their hurts on others. they can't deal with their **** so they, without realizing it, try to pass it on to someone else. usually to the people who love them the most. if they succeed then they are still hurt and so are the ones that they affected. if they don't succeed then they are still hurt.

as you have discovered, fighting doesn't ultimately help. money doesn't either. women are there and then they're gone. same with friends. both groups will hold out with you until it becomes inconvenient. family is there but it's not fair to drag them into the real bull**** all the time.

i think the only way to resolve **** inside is to be positive on the OUTSIDE. and that's hard when you're spending your time off of work partying, doing drugs, ****ing, etc...
i myself am getting tired of the scene too. i could have the ulitimate night: party, get trashed, yayed up, hit a few scenes, meet some hotties, and possibly wake up next to one of them the next morning but you know what?? i still feel like **** when i wake up.

**** all that. i'm gonna start volunteering for charities and i invite you (and anyone else in the area) to come with. i just put an inquiry in over here (http://www.rescuemission.org/volunteer/volunteer.htm)
i think the key to getting the **** worked out is just to surround yourself with as much positivity as possible. donating your time to help others not only helps them, but it also does something within yourself as well.
give it a try bro. everything else hasn't worked and you aint got **** to lose.

Originally posted by Mouse
[B]Almost ****'n OD'd last night.. I'm high/drunk right now too. Sure, I can ****ing fight, but I'm going downa lonely road man. You ****s look up to people who can fight well, and embrace their ****ing violent side.. but where does that get them? I know a lot of you guys respect me because I can fight.. thats ****ing bull ****.. maybe its the coke and vodka ytalking though.. i dunno. People glorify fighting.. destruction.. man thats ****ing wrong. I could still be fighting in that cage with people chanting my name with the lives i take.. but thats not how you truly live.. how does that help anyone? what benefit does that pose on mankind? nothing. It's a form to deal with internal demons that we're too weak to deal with ourselves.

I'm just another druggy, ****ing guy goin down the wrong path that can fight. woopty ****ing doo. Don't respect me, and don't make guys that can fight your role models;... mnake guys that treat their ladies right your role models.. guys that can rase awsome kids who have a love for life.. not *****es that are blood thirsty that are good with fighting... if I kept fighting u would respect a guy that doesnt give a ****, who kills, then who does drgs after the fight in order to deal with his demons.

Just.. just ****ing realise who you're looking up to man.. dont go buy just what you see on the outside, go by what you see on the inside. The ring is a small part of life.. how are they helping their friends? how are they treating their lady? how are the managing their money? .. etc.. i dunno.. this whole ****ing site is dedicated to blood thirstyness.. to a blindness of internal conflict that you guys don't want to look at. I know, I was there... I was ****ing in the cage, I was ****ing there when **** went down.. the shootings.. the stabbings.. the pride for 228th street.. but **** it because you know what? I dosen't lead to anywhere but to hate and destruction of your soul and heart, and your love.

Think about this **** man. Just ****ing do me the favor and think about it. I don't even know if I came across the right way because I'm ****ing spaced out man... but think about it. ...


Sincerely.,
Matt "Mighty Mouse" Jensen... who means ****ing nothing.



http://www.kleenex.com/us/products/everyday/images/upright/M_white.jpg

Drugs are a double edged sword. Anybody who gets into them should know what can happen. No remorse for anybody who lets it get out of hand.

too much of anything will make you an addict

Originally posted by Creed
Two words

Randy Couture

Hell yes, he is a role model. Just because some people fight for a living doesn't mean their twisted like you Matt, there's a lot of good guys in this sport. You aren't a role model but they do exsist.

What?

he thinks he's hulk hogan or some **** ****in incredible

stay away from those drugs dude.

Let's all get wasted!!!!

I might tonight. I hope so.

If it's any consolation Mouse, I don't respect you.

- J.

Originally posted by Red
stop feeling sorry for urself

'wah wah wah my life didnt turn out how i wanted it"

i wanted to be the running back for the eagles. that didnt happen.

JOIN THE ****ING CLUB


Gotta love Denis Leary

"LIFE SUCKS - GET A ****ING HELMET!"

- J.

Matt,

Stop posting your sob story on GMMA and get your **** together. Have some respect for your damn self and get cleaned the **** up. I mean really your only hurting your self.