yes it is.

as a disclaimer, i'm trashed right now.

i have no idea what time i'm gonna wake up tomorrow. i have no idea what's gonna happen when i do.
my last day at Pac States Mortgage is at the end of the month.

i think i have a new job lined up.
i think i have enough $$ to support the change.
i think i'll end up getting that $$.
i think i may not.
i realize that it's all or nothing.
i think the new place will work out.
i think i'll NOT sell my clothing line now.
i think i'll start up another business to confuse myself even more.
i think i think too much.
i drink too much.

controlled chaos dictates my life and, as much as i strain, i like pain.
if anyone else shares my massochism (possibly spelled incorrectly allison) then raise your ****ing fist in the air
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im a sadist, i think.

Dude,

Drinking the first of the week = not too good.

I'm sure you'll be fine work wise, it will all be ok. :)

i don't think i ever told you shara. when i'm in a drunk phase in life then i drink every night.
same with pot smoking, training, and reading.

say i think i'm gonna pass out on the couch tonight. lates!!!

You realise... if all the money you spent on beer and dope was spent on protein and steroids, and instead of drinking you actually trained, how ****ing monstrous you'd be?

- J.

That is a good point....

Im a monster.