What do you guys think about subconsciously ****ing things up for yourselves? Do you think it's possible? I think it is, and I think I do it alot. I feel like I purposely set myself up to fail, and then do it all over again without really realizing that I'm ****ing my life up.

Story of my life dude.
worst part is I acually watch myself do it sometimes.

i do the exact opposite. of course everything still turns out horrible but nonetheless, i ALWAYS keep a strong positive attitude.

it's cool because when you look back at everything and see that it's all gone to ****, yet still retain total optimism.....you come off like a complete ****in psycho.
welcome to my world.

See, I start everything off good. Then I always seem to **** it up somewhere along the line, be it a job, working out, relationships whatever.

I'm very optimistic, but there's always this small window of time where I can completely **** up any situation, and for whatever reason I never miss that window. It's not that I want to screw **** up all the time, I just always find a way to do it.

Now that I'm thinking about this, it could be because I like to test boundaries. See what I can get away with and I think that ****s things up alot.

i have one of the all time most negative attitudes ever. i never expect myself to succeed in anything i do or anything good to ever happen to me.

You are all losers beside Purity, The very premmis makes as much sence as Money? Maybe you are not well thought out. or maybe you make bad desicions. Not everyone can be as razor sharp and Purity and I

Maybe it was all the weed

Your mastery of the english language astounds me. Gman must have kicked your ass and taken over at your keyboard.

I think I'm just a little destructive by nature, if things are going to well I've got to create some waves to start messing things up. If it aint broke, break it, then I've got something to fix.

HAHAHHAA. For all my accomplishments , spelling was not one of them..lol

Originally posted by Zen420
I think I'm just a little destructive by nature, if things are going to well I've got to create some waves to start messing things up. If it aint broke, break it, then I've got something to fix.

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You guys need to get laid.

I got a big,black cloud over my ****ing head.

so I just exspect the worse, hope for the best.

that way I wont kill anybody.

Originally posted by Zen420
Your mastery of the english language astounds me. Gman must have kicked your ass and taken over at your keyboard.

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here's my view also. i don't care if i win or lose. i try as hard as i can in everything that i'm passionate about. i know i have a good heart, i don't suck the money dick, and i always put others well being in fronna my own.

so at the end of the day, even though 95% of everything i've tried has failed beyond my most negative expectation....as long as i can look back and say that i tried the best i could, then i know i'm still good in God's eyes. therefore i'm now good in my own eyes.
**** the rest.

Originally posted by Zen420
I think I'm just a little destructive by nature, if things are going to well I've got to create some waves to start messing things up. If it aint broke, break it, then I've got something to fix.
I can relate to this, but my g/f provides me with plenty of things to fix in my life.

Let the mods kill each other
YAY!

Originally posted by Purity
here's my view also. i don't care if i win or lose. i try as hard as i can in everything that i'm passionate about. i know i have a good heart, i don't suck the money dick, and i always put others well being in fronna my own.

so at the end of the day, even though 95% of everything i've tried has failed beyond my most negative expectation....as long as i can look back and say that i tried the best i could, then i know i'm still good in God's eyes. therefore i'm now good in my own eyes.
**** the rest.

I feel like I've never given my best shot at anything. I feel like I'm sitting on a mountain of unfulfilled potential. My therapist says it's due to ADD and a dislike of authority and a serious lack of discipline. I think he's right. I want just once, to feel like I've given my all to something no matter what the outcome is.

Originally posted by Purity
here's my view also. i don't care if i win or lose. i try as hard as i can in everything that i'm passionate about. i know i have a good heart, i don't suck the money dick, and i always put others well being in fronna my own.

so at the end of the day, even though 95% of everything i've tried has failed beyond my most negative expectation....as long as i can look back and say that i tried the best i could, then i know i'm still good in God's eyes. therefore i'm now good in my own eyes.
**** the rest.

That's a good view bro. Some things you can not control and i wouldn't let that bring you down if you are trying as hard as you can. That's all you can give, keep your head up- something will come your way.

zen- although not known for their wisdom-filled lyrics, slipknot does have a great verse and corey taylor screams:
"overdo it, don't tell me you blew it. stop your *****in and fight your way through it."

tom- whether or not something comes my way, i don't care anymore. it would be nice to see my hard work pay off but i believe that if you can't enjoy your life now, you never will in the future. if you ***** about **** right now then you'll always find something to ***** about down the road. i enjoy my life now. i may swim in a world of **** but it's not where you stand but rather in which direction you move. and THAT'S what counts. and THAT's what tells you the type of person that you really are.

Great posts in this thread Tony, thanks.

no prob. now i must head back to the sales meeting where i will rant and rave about how disorganized this ****ed up company is.

I think I sell myself short to much which equates to alot of problems i have mentally.

lets use fighting for an example. everytime i get a sweep or sub or something I always acuse my opponent of giving it to me.

I have ruined my life many many times

purity just made hero in my book. good posts, good read. very true. anyone who does not know him..... he is who he types. he types like he talks. its all real, baby...... its all real.

zen, purity..... and all of you have good outlooks. me myself... well, i try, and i just have fun doing it. i guess thats good enough for me for now. hopefully all of my dreams can become a reality, if not, then atleast i had fun workin for it. most people don't even do that. my main goal while i am here is to enjoy this life... i guess that would atleast let me die a happy man.