Zen
03-31-2003, 10:24 AM
Been thinking alot lately, which can be very dangerous. But, I've come to the conclusion that life is good. I'm working 7 days a week, which in the past would've driven me mad, and to quit my jobs asap. But, for some unexplainable reason, it's not bothering me. I haven't trained in 2 months, I'm broke as hell, hence working 7 days a week, I owe my school about 600 dollars in back fees, but I'm ok with it. I don't smoke weed or drink nearly as much as I used to. I smoked pretty much everyday from October through the beginning of March. Now I'm down to smoking maybe once a week and drinking even less. I guess I've come to the conclusion, that I alone, control my mental, physical and emotional states. And I've chosen to be as happy as possible, regardless of what life throws my way. This could quite possibly be one of the gheyest posts of all time, but I really don't care, it made me feel good, and that's what matters most. I just hope I can continue to be as happy and relaxed as I am right now.