April 6th is off, along side with other previously-set dates for me to fight. I need to take a break and find myself again. You may think this sounds a lil fruity but I could really give a **** anymore.

I have the potential to do good in this sport.. i can fight and love doing so. But I've caught myself on something that most fighters never see before it's already take'n it's cost upon them. Every fighter needs a balance.. a balance between the state of mind that says to fight on reflex.. and the other state that says to love and enjoy the true emmotions and feeling of life. For most fighters it's hard to turn off the fighting mind once u leave training.. and for me I've notice that it's been overtaking me and effecting my relationships with family and friends.. i need to draw the line and take a step back for a while.

No training, no fighting, I'm not even going to set foot in my teams gym for a while. Rather I am going to focus on my painting, school, and most importantly my relationships with people. I've won a lot of fights in my life.. every fight I've ever been in on the street, and professionaly, i have won. i don't need to prove anything anymore to myself along those lines.

I've come to the realisation that even if I keep fighting and get closer to my dream of getting to the UFC.. i will become someone that i despise in order to reach those goals. A lot of fighters can fight and train, and still switch it off once they get home.. but i am different and cannot. Thankgod i am smart enough to realise that.

I started fighting because i wanted to prove to myself that i could do it and suceed, and i accomplished that with a lot of hard work, sweat, and a hell of a lot of spilled blood. Now it is time to prove to myself that i can honestly love again and be the true loving person that I am on the inside, and have it be shown in my outward relationships.

Most of you probably aren't going to understand this. Call me what you will, think of me as you wish.. but I have been through enough **** that proves my past worth while.

Creed is gay for editing post.


- Creed

i understand man.

Originally posted by Playful Agony
Please don't tell us what you want to do to him......I don't need to know that



- Creed


How the **** did u dothat creed???????????? i didnt say that

he edited your post.

hahahahahahaahaa wow thats crazy

I think i get the gyst of what your saying. I wish you the best.

i thought u can only edit the posts you wright.. inless creed has the power lol

he has power, he is a mod. but i can change them as well... (see above)

hey change that!!!!!!!!!

that is what i meant.

god damn you guys are ****ing funny...... stop that

matt, i hope everything is all good for you in life man. i will still be here. i truly hope that you are not completely done with the sport, cause u can honestly be one of the best fighters. you have the potential. perhaps i can use you now that u have more time... and you can maybe help me on my game. unless you are COMPLETELY done with it all for right now... i can understand. However, i am glad that you are going to stop for a second.... and look around you and see whats going on. i mean for real... you know what they say:

"don't take life to serious, it might pass you by" -Van Wilder

have fun with life and love it while its here bro. **** what anyone thinks, its all about you. thats what its always been about and thats what its gonna be about. The sport will always be here, you will not. Whatever it is you do in life, make it worth your time here. When you die, you gotta have that fullfilling feeling. If you are empty right now, fullfill yourself with whatever it is you need to be complete in life. you only have so long here, then its all over.

best wishes.

thats the sweetest thing adam has ever said the whole time ive known him..... awwwwwwww

He can be pretty sweet at times. I won't go into any detail, in fear that I might ruin his reputation. That is, unless he pisses me off.

:devil

BURN HIS ASS, SPILL YOURT GUTS

Matt,

I can sympathise with the hard life of a fighter. All the rage the anger, you can't help but live with it.... I know, I do tech support for a living.

Remember to stop beating the women unless they deserve it,
also remember to drink once a week, it's mandatory you learn to chill.

If the guy behind the counter says you're not old enough to buy beer, pop a cap in his ass!

- The Jake

Whatever makes you the happiest is the best thing you can give yourself.

matt i understand where ur coming from, but i know u love fighting so i say train less, but dont just stop outright

Break is over......Start fighting again

Yeah, *****.

Originally posted by Mouse
April 6th is off, along side with other previously-set dates for me to fight. I need to take a break and find myself again. You may think this sounds a lil fruity but I could really give a **** anymore.

I have the potential to do good in this sport.. i can fight and love doing so. But I've caught myself on something that most fighters never see before it's already take'n it's cost upon them. Every fighter needs a balance.. a balance between the state of mind that says to fight on reflex.. and the other state that says to love and enjoy the true emmotions and feeling of life. For most fighters it's hard to turn off the fighting mind once u leave training.. and for me I've notice that it's been overtaking me and effecting my relationships with family and friends.. i need to draw the line and take a step back for a while.

No training, no fighting, I'm not even going to set foot in my teams gym for a while. Rather I am going to focus on my painting, school, and most importantly my relationships with people. I've won a lot of fights in my life.. every fight I've ever been in on the street, and professionaly, i have won. i don't need to prove anything anymore to myself along those lines.

I've come to the realisation that even if I keep fighting and get closer to my dream of getting to the UFC.. i will become someone that i despise in order to reach those goals. A lot of fighters can fight and train, and still switch it off once they get home.. but i am different and cannot. Thankgod i am smart enough to realise that.

I started fighting because i wanted to prove to myself that i could do it and suceed, and i accomplished that with a lot of hard work, sweat, and a hell of a lot of spilled blood. Now it is time to prove to myself that i can honestly love again and be the true loving person that I am on the inside, and have it be shown in my outward relationships.

Most of you probably aren't going to understand this. Call me what you will, think of me as you wish.. but I have been through enough **** that proves my past worth while.

I used to really enjoy our conversations, Matt. We should hang out, man... or at the very least, talk a little bit about your recent awakenings in life. You owe me at least that much. :)

If you're around... come over Monday night, Javi will be here too.

I remember this thread, It is when Matt decided he was going to stop fighting to become a cross dressing drug addict......

I thought he was a BDSM preacher?

Same thing?

Yeah

This thread is too gay even for the Flaming *** Forum.