**** **** **** **** ****!!!!!

someone might as well shoot me in the ****ing face.

just last night i get great news Edson wants me to fight in a couple months he wants to work with me alot and get me really god. he wants to make me a champion.

Tonight I go to class and in ****ing practice of all the bull **** agains some other white belt that i was SCHOOLING i step over for and armbar and he rolls with me (no prob) but either I was to upright or the is to flat and I ****ED my shoulder straight into the matt and all i hear is a big "CRACK" i scream once just fro mthe shock. and i'm ****in out.

I"M OUT!

I'M INACTIVE FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!

They all tel me itsno big thing it happens to all of us. So i'm like alright cool no prob. I start driving home and i nearly start crying it hurt so much then i start laughing.

I call my mom cause she lives down the street form my dojo and i go home she gives me ice and starts *****ign about my dad.

i don;t need to hear that! **** that ****!

i'm worried its broken and i'm not gettin it looked at cause well i can;t really afford it.

if this ends my carear I will KILL everyone i see.

If you do not get it looked at, there's a good chance your career really is over.

- The Jake

I am told it just jammed it up beacuse i can move it most of the way around.

I only can;t move it from straight out to straight up.

I'm goin to the school doc in the morn i hope

Good luck man. I will go and break my hand now in honor of you. The funny thing is I was boxing tonight with head gear on and I have a small headache

I almost forgot how's math girl going.

Shoulder injuries can be bad but pretty common unfortunately. Just pray it's minor.

There could be something you were meant to learn from the injury too. Often life pushes us around because we're meant to learn something and if we don't learn it, it continues to push us around.

I learned a few things from when I did mine:
1) arm wrestling is a very stupid, very ridiculuous 'sport'
2) I learned how to work around an injury and do different exercises I would never have normally done or considered.

- The Jake

We are gettin along good. I think Sat we are gonna go to The Nakamal (Thats a Kava bar) and play some Backgammon since she can't actually drink the Kava due to her meds.

look up the Kava stuff its pretty cool.

I'm hungry and hurt.

My family hates me, and i want to die for every reason except Mat Girl and my homeboy Tom.

**** my best friend Jon is being ****ty even.

like what Jake?

Well I take injuries in perspective.

I think fighters in particular look at injuries in short term and rarely look into the long term. **** how many injuries do you think guys like Tito, Sakuraba and Silva took to get where they are???

I don't know the specifics on your situation but chances are you can learn something from the whole mess. Reflect over it and your situation. I'm sure you learn something. And if you do, then you know for a fact it wasn't a waste.

Good luck with your date, man.

- The Jake

no i meant like what exersized did you do.

and thanks for the insight and the wishes of good luck.