ever feel paranoid sometimes?i feel like that all the time.like the "someone" is keeping tabs on you.i don't mean a person i mean like the irs, or the gov. or some ****.for years i have tried to keep a low profile on paper.me and the wife have bank accounts but i am not on them.not on any of the bills.cell phone bill is in her name.all my cars have been in my mother's name or my x when we were together.
i feel sometimes like i am a little crazy but at the same time, i am a stable person.my life is normal.i have odd beliefs some will say but i am a functional person.i can go from being over joyed to feeling depressed in about 5 seconds for no reason at all.i think about strange **** like i wonder if anyone in my apt. building is an ex con or a murderer, **** like that.
the rage i feel sometimes scares me.never towards my wife or my son.i am talking against strangers.i have posted it before.like in ****in wal mart when there are 25 people in line and there are2 lines open and i get in one and sure as ****, they need a price check or some ****.i ****in feel like going off.

i know this is probably abnormal **** but does anyone else ever feel any of these things or do you know anyone that talks about this type of ****.

rydawg, sorry for another white trash thread.i know how much you hate them:devil

Maybe your Skitzophrenic......

Originally posted by rigid

i know this is probably abnormal **** but does anyone else ever feel any of these things or do you know anyone that talks about this type of ****.



no

Originally posted by kaps
Maybe your Skitzophrenic......

what EXACTLY would that mean then kaps?

Have you had problems with Meth in the past? If you dont want to say it here pm me, cuz that **** sounds alot like some people I know that used to be crank addicts.....

This is so cute and ammusing. you're like a cute little teddy bear. I just want to stab you in the chest over and over again. Then snuggle with your shredded, bloody corpse.. and kiss you on your cold cheak and say, "It'll be alright sweety.. no, shhhh, don't wake up.. rest, daddy's here now."

never done meth.never even seen meth.only drugs i ever took was pot and acid a couple times.the **** i take now is all prescribed.
it's just weird **** that i think about.just as fast as it pops in my head, it's gone.

matt, what is your problem man.you can talk about all your feelings on **** and the morbid **** you do, the ****in bondage **** and thats cool.i say something and you rip on me.what gives?

Everyone's a ***** today. Everyone shut the **** up.

quit taking oxycontins.

I feel like that sometimes, like when I'm in a hurry to leave work and someone calls my phone or if I'm in a hurry to get to school and the person in front of me is doing 25 in a 55.

I know people who have taken apart everything electronic in there house, only use payphones, and **** like that man. My dad used to be one of them, they call it Paranoid Skitzaphrenia or some ****, he got some medication for it and is alright now.....

u show symptoms of being manic depressive

Originally posted by Matt Jensen
This is so cute and ammusing. you're like a cute little teddy bear. I just want to stab you in the chest over and over again. Then snuggle with your shredded, bloody corpse.. and kiss you on your cold cheak and say, "It'll be alright sweety.. no, shhhh, don't wake up.. rest, daddy's here now."

Damn Matt.....You are now my favorite fighter!!!!!!

Originally posted by Christopher Chaos
u show symptoms of being manic depressive


could you tell me some more about that.?
waylander, i only take them when my back pain is really bad.i need em.no way around that.
taking apart electronic ****, using pay phones, i don't feel like that.i just don't want to be on record at the banks, no assets.i cash my ssi **** at different spots then deposit them in my wifes(our) account.it's all in her name but i have the debit card you know.i am always thinking weird **** and it kinda freaks me out.like earlier i walked out of my place and the dude was fixing the washing machine and i was thinking like who the **** is he?wonder what kinda **** he does in his apartment.
**** scares me sometimes

How much prescription meds are you taking and how often are they monitored/revised?

I was given these pills for my back when I ****ed it up that the Dr told me were painkillers, they were also a anti depressant. Use to give me the weirdest headaches, kinda like a fuzzy fog in my head that felt scratchy and I was having some ****en scary thoughts about people and ****. I also disappeared on paper for about 12 months and trusted no one...could be worth getting the drugs checked

I used to constantly second guess everything. I was constantly paranoid that I was on a T.V. show focused about me. I always tried to figure out what they would throw at me for the show, or what the viewers were thinking. Actually, I only just remembered I used to do that. Why the **** did I do that.

What Is Bipolar Disorder?


Bipolar disorder, previously known as manic depression, is a serious, double-edged mental illness. In contrast to the sustained bleakness of generalized depression (technically described as unipolar disorder), bipolar disorder is characterized by cyclical swings between elation and despair. The pattern of the mood alternations varies widely among sufferers. In some people, years of normal functioning can separate manic and depressive episodes. In others, the episodes cycle frequently, three or four times a year, with respites between. For some people, depression and mania cycle continuously and sometimes rapidly. There are also people who experience mixed episodes, in which mania and depression occur together or alternate rapidly within a brief period of time. And for a rare few, an episode of bipolar disorder may occur only once in a lifetime. (If it occurs twice, it is usually followed by other episodes.) Generally, the depressive phase lasts longer than the manic phase, and it also tends to be more frequent; the cycle can be erratic.


Bipolar disorder is known to afflict about 1% of the U.S. population, although its frequency may be much higher because almost 75% of cases go untreated. Men and women are equally susceptible. Much evidence suggests that the illness has a genetic basis, but its origins are still uncertain. The symptoms result from chemical imbalances in the brain, and they lie beyond voluntary control. The disorder is not only life-disrupting but can also be dangerous: About 20% of people with bipolar disorder commit suicide, usually when they are passing from one phase to another and feel disoriented. Some 11% of sufferers take this drastic action in the first decade after diagnosis.

Fortunately, great strides have recently been made in treating this illness; in most cases, the symptoms can be controlled effectively by medication and other therapies.

The disorder occurs in two main forms, known as bipolar I and bipolar II; they may have separate genetic origins. In bipolar I, both phases of the illness are apt to be very pronounced. In bipolar II, mania is often mild (it is termed hypomania), and the depression can be either mild or severe. Bipolar II is more difficult to diagnose and is often mistaken for generalized depression. It has fewer and shorter periods of remission than bipolar I, tends to run in families, and is somewhat less responsive to treatment. It may be the more common form of bipolar disorder.

The illness is sometimes linked to seasonal affective disorder, with depression occurring in late fall or winter, giving way to remission in the spring, and progressing to mania or hypomania in the summer.

About one case of bipolar disorder in five begins in late childhood or adolescence; adolescents are more likely than adults to have physical and psychotic symptoms, such as hallucinations and delusions, and they are more apt to be misdiagnosed. Usually, however, the illness strikes young adults between the ages of 25 and 35. The first episode in males is likely to be manic; the first episode in females, depressive -- and frequently, a woman will experience several episodes of depression before a manic episode occurs. As patients grow older, recurrences of either bipolar I or bipolar II tend to come more frequently and last longer.

Bipolar disorder is thought to result from chemical imbalances in the brain, caused by a defective gene or genes. Among the brain chemicals possibly involved are serotonin and norepinephrine, but the chemical interaction in bipolar disorder is complex and not yet completely understood. The likelihood that genes play a role is supported by the fact that usually there is some family history of mood swings, depressive illness, or suicide.