I'm sittin there last night, right.... bored.. it's about 11:30 at night, I'm playing scrabble with a female that I've grown to be quite fond of....

.... and I start thinking of Alaina.

I tend to do that from time to time... part of me misses havin her around, but a bigger part of me misses who I thought she was. Sincerely. It was more than how much we talked or how she looked... it was who she was, and how she portrayed it.

I'm sittin there lookin at the pictures of this girl... and I'm thinking to myself "all along, I've thought that I was talking to her".

Imagine my ****in surprise when you came at me that one day and told me that these pictures I'd thought were her, were actually someone else... and imagine my ****ing disappointment when every confirmation I'd ever needed that this chick was lying through her ****ing teeth about everything smacked me in the face like a sack of wet bricks.

****.

And I still kinda get mad at that ****, you know? It's not like I'm mad at you... I guess I'm just mad at the situation. She lied to me about everything. I don't understand it.... I don't understand how someone can do that to a person, even if it's for personal gain. That's the kinda **** that encumbers the soul. That's borderline ****in sadist. I would love to believe that there's a special layer of hell reserved for people like that.

She called me today, ya know.

This is intrigueing... but I'm still kinda lost. From what I gather thus far, it appears pretty ****ed up.

Ah me, say no more homes...

(((HUGS))) Dave, enjoy the girl you have there and leave the rest to die a slow horrible death....

****ed up.....

Originally posted by lil'surfer girl
(((HUGS))) Dave, enjoy the girl you have there and leave the rest to die a slow horrible death....

This new one... my goodness, she's beautiful. In so many ways.

She just text messaged my cellphone with "Thinkin of ya. =)" I'm usually the one doing that to her... aaawww. :)

Thanks Dereka. You = rules.

so what did she say?


I say it's ok if you're not ok with who you are and say that you are somebody else...but she took it to far. Camilla got upset to when she saw her whole life being used by someone else. I really hope that everything worked/works out for you.

maybe it's hard now but there where something with Alaina that you liked. Talk to her. meybe you could get to know the real Alaina. and if you like her, hook up. if you don't, put the hooks in and choke her out....

a painful death.

dave, u just understand bro, that YOU are gonna be something she is gonna NEED. she will be watching you being the famous star you are gonna be and will be crying in her own piss about how she coulda had the man of her dreams!

**** that cunt *****, whore, tramp, dyke, two faced **** monkey!!!! FUUUUCKKKKKKK HERRRRR!!!!!!

Originally posted by ParazIT
so what did she say?



It was awkward. Very awkward.

I hadn't spoken to her since she cut out on me the last time... I've been living with the lividity inside as a result of it ever ****in since... and then hearing her voice again after so long... it was.. I don't know what it was. But it wasn't the same.

She recognized the fact that she'd ****ed things up... which, really, is nice of her to do after 5 ****in months of draggin me through this ****pit she called "caring about me". Said something about wanting to see me... and I told her that I was never the one with a problem, it was her who had the difficulty showing up.

I just don't know what to say at this point. There was a point where I could honestly say that seeing her would fix everything... now, I'm not sure this feeling inside as a result of all the misleading, the disappointment and the lonliness can be repaired by something so simple.

Even then, new girl (you like how I've never used her name, don't cha) is incredible... she's given me every single reason I need to never look back at this whole incident, and mentally bury it, and all the ugliness and embarrassment that came along with it. Things between us are going great, and building momentum. She's a scorpio (like me), she's intelligent, she's funny, she's just awesome. Singer, dancer, actress... there's so much I admire about her.

And to think... if I'd sat here and played that girl's whipping boy for even a week longer than fate would have it... I might've never met her.

"Sometimes we keep looking back at things that might have been beautiful, but the more we look back, the more we miss the spectacular things that are to come."

Ernest J. Karlogen

I think you should meet the girl....it's like I said...if just the pictures was a lie then theres a girl you like....but on the other hand she might be fake all over...


you won't loose anything if you go over there and meet her. and if she stands you up again. ****ing order a 100 pizzas to her house....

but then again...why should you listen to me? I dunno anything more about love than that it sucks....I've been ****ing hurt once and I never want to love again cuz Im to scared to get hurt....

so what Im writing is just what my minds sez, but I dunno what my heart would say if I were in the same position...

i missed out

wheres the new one from

Good luck with the new girl Dave. Don't look back.

Dave, do what you have to do man. No matter what happens, GhosT^x0 is always welcome to make threads about how badly he is gonna kick our ass :lovers:

Geez, Dave. I didn't realize how similar some of our experiences have been.